playing for real
there was a recent post at Culturebot from a dance company the included "it's time to start playing for real" (not "playing to win"as I've been misquoting)
this call triggered a bunch of thoughts in me... it resonates, despite being very unclear about what that would actually look like.
or perhaps that's not true. That I do know what that might look like, and I am unsure of my capability of doing it.
that playing for real would involve dropping the chronic self doubt and hemming and hawing that surrounds much contemporary work (or maybe just my personal life porjecting large). that instead of meekly asking for a little corner, that we take space (even if that is just corner that we want) and make someone kick us out ( at which point would we be surprised to find that nobody actually could be bother to try)...
solid opinions and an aggressive stance have been so (importantly) problemitized that, for me at least, it has ended up resulting in a kind of paralysis and depression that just isn't interesting or useful anymore - though is, at this point very hard to drag myself out of, no matter how much I hear and intellectually understand the need to just go for what turns me on and screw the rest.
The CW's are important for this, as was (is) the TT - two projects that I've actually moved from chronic thoughts to reality. And while they are not successes in terms of numbers, they hold that space for me. they establish precident. And some very important things have come out of the TT especially - thoughts and friendships both.
the "playing for real" also ties to the idea of proposals (which we've been taking about since feb., and now I read all this Bourriaud where he talks about it. that common occurance - idea's occuring in the same time yet independly really should be the subject of some kind of study - if it is [oh hypothetical reader] let me know).
that it's not just making proposals in a conversational tone (hey, wouldn't it be neat if...) but in an active, realized way (we are doing this, care to join?)
a way in, for me is rock 'n roll (he says listening to Paradise City) - that a kind of strut and attitude. but how to get there personally continues to be the problem.
this call triggered a bunch of thoughts in me... it resonates, despite being very unclear about what that would actually look like.
or perhaps that's not true. That I do know what that might look like, and I am unsure of my capability of doing it.
that playing for real would involve dropping the chronic self doubt and hemming and hawing that surrounds much contemporary work (or maybe just my personal life porjecting large). that instead of meekly asking for a little corner, that we take space (even if that is just corner that we want) and make someone kick us out ( at which point would we be surprised to find that nobody actually could be bother to try)...
solid opinions and an aggressive stance have been so (importantly) problemitized that, for me at least, it has ended up resulting in a kind of paralysis and depression that just isn't interesting or useful anymore - though is, at this point very hard to drag myself out of, no matter how much I hear and intellectually understand the need to just go for what turns me on and screw the rest.
The CW's are important for this, as was (is) the TT - two projects that I've actually moved from chronic thoughts to reality. And while they are not successes in terms of numbers, they hold that space for me. they establish precident. And some very important things have come out of the TT especially - thoughts and friendships both.
the "playing for real" also ties to the idea of proposals (which we've been taking about since feb., and now I read all this Bourriaud where he talks about it. that common occurance - idea's occuring in the same time yet independly really should be the subject of some kind of study - if it is [oh hypothetical reader] let me know).
that it's not just making proposals in a conversational tone (hey, wouldn't it be neat if...) but in an active, realized way (we are doing this, care to join?)
a way in, for me is rock 'n roll (he says listening to Paradise City) - that a kind of strut and attitude. but how to get there personally continues to be the problem.
posted by Jacob Zimmer at 12:47 PM
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